Monday, October 13, 2008

On occasion

I have slightly fallen behind on my gymming schedule these days.Studies and the rest of that crap.
Its weird,the gym here in Singapore.There are people who go there to tone up,but still insist on taking up the lift to the second floor.There are the skinny people and the medium built people.No one fat though.
I often wonder where all the fatties in Singapore are at.They're probably dumped off, on an island somewhere,where they can happily live out their lives surrounded by like minded and waisted people.
Haha,just like they kill off all the pigeons in this place because of the mess they create.And the censorship issues.If I was my usual self,I would have absolutely hated this place.But hell,I actually dont.Its something like this;You are wrapped in a cocoon of comfort .You have everything:-from cheap housing to medical aid to air con buses and,who the hell am I to complain about a few murdered pigeons.
I just got an sms from my personal trainer reading "How am I supposed to help you if you don't want to help yourself".What the hell does she want to do,I wonder.Prolly suck the life force outta me,because thats all I've got left.
Inactivity of the soul kills!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Opposing views.

My latest favourite singer-Miyavi

I just got off the phone after a conversation with two rather rowdy and raucous college boys.One of them is my friend and the other one is supposedly hot..:P
Excerpt(They had the speaker phone on)
Boy A(My friend):He he Swan,you are going to the masquerade party as a boy?I think I'll turn gay then.As it is you love gay people.
Boy B(The other one):What?You like gay people...(Laughs)
Swan(seriously):Yes I do.
Boy B to Boy A:Haha...shes likes gays.
Boy A to Boy B:No yaar,shes just joking with you.She says absolutely anything at times.
Boy A(To me):Aren't you,little one?
Swan(Irritated):No,I'm not joking.I do like gay men.A lot actually.I have many friend who are gay.
Stunned silence follows.
Swan(The hypocrite in me awakens):Hee hee,no yaar,they're just hot.Do lots of stuff and makeup all na?Anyway,do you really like P?
The topic changes.

Incidents like these often make me wonder.Why is the majority of the people I know think I'm kidding whenever I mention anything about homosexuals or my love for them.(Yes it's true,I do like gay men.When I see you,I will probably love to be your friend.Unless I'm to intimidated by your 6 pack or whatever.)

Its funny when you contrast places like England where homosexuals can legally marry and India,where they just dont exist.

Even the youth of our country,no matter how progressive they view themselves as,are blind to the fact that homosexuality does exist.It is not just an instrument to bring about laughter whenever it is played in movies.

Perhaps its my fault too.I have lived in this utopian alternate reality for so long.A reality where sexuality is fluid-girl,guy,both,whatever......a reality where no act is taboo..where nothing is wrong.
It couldnt be more different from my actual surroundings.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008


Its a holiday today.For Eid.Woke up at my usual 4 Pm,feeling guilty .Slunk around the house,conned my Dad into going to to Little India alone and then settled down for some SAT Prep.
My SAT coachings finished yesterday.*Sighs*..I have nothing more to look f0ward too.
Had my hip hop classes on Tuesday.Had to endure an hour of extremely intricate footwork and extremely middle aged flirting.With the instructor that is..not me.:P.There was a new boy in the classes,so I was kinda happy cuz all the boys usually dance worse than me.Well,not this one aparently.
On the bus ride back home I sat opposite this college girl who was probably an year or so older to me,but looked as if she was my Mum.She kept staring at me,but I suppose thats because she figured that I was looking at her too.Not that I was.I dont look at people in the face.My way of acting "Chill".Try explaining that to my SAT teacher.Im a sucker for the mumsy types.The french teacher in my old school.

It has been a wierd week so far.When my Dad and I were walking through Orchard,a number of compeltly random people started coming up to us,saying some stuff both of us didnt get.They gestured with their hands ..and for that instance it looked like I was seeing the world in slow motion.Freaky.And it wasnt as if they spoke in some language we didnt understand..there were two Indians among them.Its like one of those movies in which people come and say stuff to you ,everything which turns out to be prophetic.I do hope there is a movie like this.If not..Hire me Dreamworks!.